currently there's a chinese talk show on about scholarships.

scholarships is one topic i could write an essay on. but the night is late now, another time shall the essay appear. but let me state my stand simply. i did not apply for any scholarship. well, perhaps not that i would be in any good position to get one. but. bottomline is that i never applied. there, my stand.

touchy topic, considering almost everyone who reads this and everyone i know has some form of scholarship or another. sigh. i can definitely see the point of their existence, but at the same time i am beginning to dislike this elitist system. the clear-headed are fine, they don't become assholes and adopt a mightier-than-thou outlook. those who do don't deserve it in the first place. all in all, i'm glad that most scholarship holders are decent people. (i still won't call them scholars though! haha not yet.) but i still hold the view that people in general should have to work darn hard to climb up the career ladder. but we all know that scholarship holders often have a personal lift rocket that shoots them up instead, bypassing the poor people who are still stuck climbing stupid ladders. that i cannot agree with. i mean, yes, they do study hard (well they have to!) but when it comes to the career, keep the red carpet. don't get the cause and effect wrong. roll it out after the results show they deserve it, not before like now. it's in the same vein of argument that i have a prejudice against rich kids. i discussed this with an army friend before and he said maybe i was just jealous. haha maybe. but i prefer sweet grapes.

i didn't learn much from basketball in ri, but some words i will always remember. a coach once said this to us, "You haven't achieved anything yet. The results we got previously has absolutely nothing to do with you. You guys are nothing until you prove yourselves. Don't associate with glory you haven't earned." it's been many years, the words may have been slightly different, but the kick-in-the-jaw effect remains. hard words, damn bloody true words.